2004-05-23 - 4:06 a.m.

help

I am too tired to get off here and get into bed, there is too much pain

2004-05-21 - 6:49 p.m.

police

Danny the obnoxious (person) couldn't get to sleep last night and is threatening to call the police. o0o I shudder with fear. If I don't care about anyone else it's not that I don't want to it's that I am not capable at present. Even though the Penrith community health centre and Nepean hospital may be shocked by this suggestion

2004-05-21 - 3:49 p.m.

Assignment 10 (real time goal setting)

Personal development: who I am committed to becoming

CHaracter traits, skills, career goals, anything i'd like to do be

I want to be completely self confident (3), talking to people easily (1), master of empathy (3), and understanding other people (5), have no fear of approaching people (1), be a friend to anyone and everyone, no matter who they are (1), want them to feel that they love talking to me(5), I would like to be a skilled motorcycle rider(3), I want to sing, prefect French and Dutch (10), I want to be happy (1), always have a positive attitude (1), I want to have a strong relationship with God (1), talk to him honestly yet not being rude or synical or pesimistic to him (3), but to get my ideas about him from the Bible (3), not from hat other people say and do, I would like to know and understand better people, what makes them think the way they do (5), why I tend to think differently and how I can turn this into a positive thing and not something which limits me (1), Iwant to be the sort of person that will see only the positive in anything that happens to me(1), see how to change anything that is a problem into an opportunity (3), remain calm when problems come along (3), I want to have people like me (5), I am having diffu=iculty keeping the typing, I want to find out what/if I should contribute (10), I want to surround myself with good friends that I can also make happy and have a good attitude towards (3), I want to be a person that is happy, that isn't shaken by anthing that comes along (3), oinihfew I don't know what to type, I want to have a family that loves me no matter what (10), someone that I can always love (5), I want to be 71kg or less (1).

The top three one year goals that I want and a paragraph why I am absoluutely committed to achieving them this year

I want to be 71kg or less (1)

I am commited to being this weight because physical health will make it easier for me to feel good about myself with people and also to have more energy to do things, make it easier for me to get up when I have to in the morning and to go to bed

have no fear of approaching people (1)

I am committed to this because I can not go on being so lonely and people need other people and I must stop limiting myself and I must , I have dificulty typing because Fl.B and Fl.S are talking loud, I need to concentrate, it's important for me to have other people to talk to when I am lonelyy and also to do things that friends to with each other I must learn what this is, I can not go on not knowing what to do in a social situation, I can not be scared, I need to have someone to talk to

I want to have a strong relationship with God (1)

I must have a strong relationship with God because only he can help me and it will give me confidence and reassurance that everything will be ok , I cannot beliek I am now not being able to concentrate because of Fl.S's laugh, I must have him there with me always to be able to not worry about anything that comes along but to know that everything will be alright.

The reason not good enough withter get better reason or new goals, I dont know , help

Thing-goals: have/do goals

If there were no limits economically I would have a VTR/similar (1) and a house in Dundas or somewhere near the city (10) and also a postie for thrashing (3) and a big plasma nad all videogames and (10) a cleaner and maintenance (10) and a comfy car (5) and a well kept house (10) also a house in the contry (20) and a lot of money and investments (3) and a better computer and internet (5) and a full sound system room for these games / stuff (10) but no not have them if its bad for me what would i have if i had infinite money, I will need to do this bit again later because Fl.S is making it impossible for me to concentrate

Three things most important within 1 year and a paragraph why I absolutely commited having within 1 year:

have a VTR/similar (1) :

because at times like this I would be able to get away quickly without a lot of pain comparatively, and also it interests me, I like this bike, and the culture, the goopd bits anyway, it is something to talk about with people because it doesn't cause pain to talk about, so people will talk to me if they see me on it

I didn't have any other (1) thing-goals.

Economic goals:

I would like to earn $8000/month (3), grow investments to $5 million (5), $20 million (10), while maintaining positive cash flow, obtain property to live in in Sydney and country (20), have a lot of free time in the process

I can't concentrate on setting thise financial goals at the moment with Fl.B and Fl.S walking in and out all the time I will have to do this aggisnment later sorry I want committed anough? or its just a bad thing that happepnds sometimes?

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