2004-11-29 - 6:25 p.m.

already but not yet

I determined to take responsibility. I still determine to take responsibility. And then last night I stayed up until about 2 am. I was too scared to take Valium and didn’t get to sleep until around 5:30.

It wasn’t because of the person on the computer. I could have gone to bed earlier. I could have taken the Valium at 2 am. I did the wrong thing. Not meaning that I did not face any difficulty.

Tonight I will take Valium before 10 pm. I have three alarms set for 8 am.

Does anyone enjoy reading this diary? I have felt judgmental towards diariers that are pessimistic, yet I do the same thing. It was suggested to me that I have a victim mentality and that this is the primary reason for any general area of my life which is not ideal. It is not good to be the victim. I determine to take responsibility.

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