2005-08-14 - 4:43 p.m.

Healing through satire

Having just done something which felt sinful I ask myself, is sarcasm and satire appropriate for the Christian?

I recognise I am years behind my interest in terms of Christian maturity. It seems that she does also. It can't, therefore be love, it has, at least from a neutral perspective, degenerated into obsession or hysteria on my behalf.

This is not how I became a Christian. I was like the Galileans, following Jesus around because I thought he could do something for me that I wanted him to do. I wouldn't have been following him around if all I would be getting was eternal life in heaven, but not what I wanted here.

Fortunately and by God's grace only can I now realise that I was arrogant to treat God with such contempt. I now committ to follow Jesus regardless of whether it seems to be in my interests or not.

So to this sinful-feeling thing. I don't think anyone ever looks, do they, but if they did, and they knew me, they would know that I need to take things less seriously. So I poked fun at myself.

How else do you "get over it"? I am not going to be pretentious, I have flaws, I am selfish at times. At times I consider my, or should I say, the, interest as Jesus - only there for my benefit. The role of a husband is to sacrifice himself. That was not how I was acting.

So I chose to make fun of the fact that I fail to live up to this role, in lieu of getting depressed because I be not good enough. Instead of feeling depressed, or guilty, I should be happy that I am dealing with things in an appropriate way.

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