2005-09-07 - 3:23 p.m.

How to get up in the morning

I am at possibly the least productive point of my life. Today's great achievement was the four drop goals of Victor Ubogu. I have not held a serious job in more than a year now. I know that I must get back in to work or I will find it difficult for the rest of my life. My reasons for not doing it are that I am focussing on other things, getting my licence, doing RDI.

RDI, incidentally, the stereotypical promise of healing I'm sure I just need to claim. It's the best that man has come up with. No one else has come up with a better way and as Dr Moustache said, it is very much a work in progress. Oh, that and the fact that it costs $6000 for the first six months during which time you get only one consultation.

But what other way out is there? I am assuming that I am not to just live "accepting" that I will never have a full life. And of course, the program itself won't help if you aren't committed to reaching the objectives.

And there is one way, one action which I can do to show a beginning of comittment, and that is to get out of bed when I wake up. How will I be able to get up at 6 in the morning to go to work if I have trouble now, staying in bed until 1 because I don't have the motivation to live?

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