27 March 2006 - 6:13 p.m.

Too far from a four/four bassline

Reading my last entry it is sad to see that over a month has passed yet nothing has changed. I am at a new job agency now that might get me back on track. There is not really that much new to record. I chose not to go to the Paul van Dyk concert after all. Rather go to church, that I know.

I learnt that that person is now pregnant. Not surprising and I am glad that it didn't work out. Still I wonder why I haven't gotten on with life.

That junior again acted like my father and told me to push through despite Asperger's and just get a job. The sad thing is, he is actually much better than my real father. Although my real father does recognise that my mum does a good job.

The fact that I get along better with her is an answer to prayer. I often feel I am a Christian by proxy, believing and seeing God answer prayer for other people (the car, for example) but not for me. This is obviously untenable. But it is hard when I see my life slipping away.

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