2004-12-05 - 5:29 p.m.

someone told me to choose life

I think point form will do for this one.

• The main development is that I have been discharged from the counselling service I was attending which explained its decision by saying that the service was not equipped to help me and no progress was being made and that I was not taking advice. I was expecting it, but it was still hard to take. During the session (or lecture) I was asked a number of questions to which I answered honestly, and on each time she said “Don’t answer now, have a think about it” in a tone that sounded like, “wrong answer, freak.” I contemplated becoming a speed hump for the 10:18, but reconsidered for two reasons: 1. I promised myself I wouldn’t kill myself before killing a certain person; and 2. I would die without ever getting to play Pro Evolution Soccer 4.
• I attended a wedding and rather than wallow in self-pity for comparative lack of Christian character, I enjoyed myself and was happy for the couple. And the free food.
• I attended several classes last week, they were a struggle, but better than not going.
• I had a great time playing 8-player PES3 on the projector screen, but was frustrated beyond my meagre limits of patience by one attendee who I suspect has ADD. I inflicted on him the offence (albeit in a much less severe way) and have felt convicted for it ever since. And while I did do wrong, I still cannot put my property in harm’s way again (long story) and explaining this fact to this individual will require tact and diplomacy in excess of my demonstrated capabilities.

That’ll do.

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